I am sorry for not being able to send out mobame for a long time.
First, I would like to apologize for keeping on cancelling theatre shows, handshake events, movie promotion events and thus disrupting the programmed schedules.
This is really abrupt, but as my will to retire from AKB48 was kindly granted, I would like to inform you, albeit only in written form.
As per the reason, it is because I have had poor health for a long time before joining, and standing in front of everyone at the best of my shape as much as I wanted to was becoming difficult so I felt that going on like this would have caused inconvenience to the people around me.
As this happens right before I was supposed to start activities as a New Team K member, from a 13th gen kenkyuusei, I think there are people who feel sad about my retirement, or people who cannot agree with my decision.
All the people in the staff encouraged me telling me “First take your time to recover and then decide”, but precisely in order to recover my health fully I have started thinking it was perhaps best for me to quit activities with AKB.
In my current condition I do nothing but cause the members and the staff to worry about me, and since I am not healthy, I would cause them trouble. I fell into self-loathing in regards to this.
Until I reached this conclusion I have talked so many times with the staff via email, but in the end they kindly respected my point of view.
Even if I stop being an AKB member I will start by doing my best to recover my health fully and undergo treatment to get into my best condition, so that I can stand again in front of you in some other way.
I would be happy from the bottom of my heart if you could wait for me until then.
If I think about it, this time last year I was not even thinking I would become a member of AKB48.
Nonetheless, if I could sing and dance on a large stage wearing lovely outfits,
if I could appear in commercials, if I could star in a movie,
if I could act with people whom I had only seen through a screen and felt like distant, distant entities until then,
if I could have genuine fights with girls 5 or 6 years younger than me, cry, and then laugh together,
more than anything, if I could meet so many people who said they loved me and supported me,
if I can feel the happiness of all this
it is because I have joined this group.
I feel that this was the period of time during which I have worried, cried, got angry, got excited, rejoiced more than ever.
I have learned so many immature points of mine, but I also feel that I have found out some good sides of mine more than before.
The fact I could experience so many things led me to a bigger self confidence.
Thank you so, so much for making me feel part of your world, for accepting me.
Once again, I am sorry for this sudden announcement.
From now on too, please, yoroshiku onegai itashimasu.